Good to hear from H that she seems to be doing okay. Had emailed her and must tell her to delete her personal email address from her blog if not people will start flooding her with nonsense. will check and delete my side.

Today feeling better as I am not worried. Seems like it's really PMS. Joe seems to know my reactions and body more than I. With Joe and my older children around, Channery is not so clingy and attention seeking. Maybe is is a good time to send her to childcare. The cost can be 60-$100 per week but at least she will learn from other kids.

Next Sat we will meet fellow Singaporeans for National Day Dinner. Cost us $180 but we get to meet fellow Singaporeans. The dinner will be held at a hotel owned by a Singaporean and the food will be authentic Singapore style. I have ielts test on that day. Teh writing, listening and reading will take a full three hours and the oral section wil be about 15 mins. If I score 8 point and above for all the test items, i will proceed to apply for PR. Somehow the statistics shows that it's quite difficult to score the required points. Will try my best la.

Am I happy here? I think others are really worried about me. Actually I am feeling okay and still very much alive. I write to release my frustrations and that help me as I always feel better after writing. It seems to be so easier to handle after I write it down. It allows me to move on and deal with the problems.

BTW for those who read my blog, I never go back to check my entries as I find it scary to do so. They are full of grammer and typo mistakes as they were usually done in less than 5-10 mins.

Take care all of you out there as life still goes on and I am actually feeling very blessed. Cowardly acts will never be my option as I must be responsible for the little ones that Joe and I had created. Somehow saying it out will strengthen my belief that life is still beautiful.

If you think you can, you can. If you think you can't, you are absolutely correct.

Nobody can affect you, except yourself. Think positive and things will work out well.