These few days I am down with flu so everything seems to lose its colour. Not so enthusiatic about life and seems life is on autopilot mode. Had an outburst of emotion on Monday and Joe was the one to receive my hate mail. Really ought to give love mails but somehow writing down all the frustrations help me to see things more clearly. Joe was still apprehensive and did not know how he should react around me but I had already gotten past that. I did a cleaning up of the whole house and felt really pleased after that. Not too good of me to pile my problems on him but he should try to shoulder some of my resentments since I am the one cooped at home with a child and have no friends to mingle. Really looking forward to going back home whereby I can still go out with friends.
Actually when one falls sick, things seem so grim sometimes and I just do not have the energy to be patient. Last Saturday, my students had a hard time since I was so sick. Those who did not do their homework really had an earful from me. Kids just wanna have fun but what about learning and doing what they had been told? I am not a crazy teacher who gave a lot of homework. I always make sure the kids should be able to complete their work with ease and yet I have students who claimed they had to do school work and other tuition work. Chinese Language is such a beautiful and useful language to master but all these kids just do not see the beauty of it. Pity them and also to my boys who think that we are imposing on them. Boys will regret one day that they never try harder to study the language. We will never give up on having our influence on them but that is really discouraging since they kept thinking otherwise.
Love being useless once in a while. There is no perfection in life until the day our coffin is closed.
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