Time waits for no man

Time waits for no man. When I was young, I wanted to grow up quickly and do all the things I wanna do when I can control my own life.

Now that I am considered an adult and have many more means than teenage years, I am feeling less in control. No control over what to expect, my health, my family and our loved ones. When one is young, we tend to think we are superhuman, we have the courage and energy to go on and on.

Now that we have more responsibilities and financial means, we tend to think too much and what consequences we have for our actions. Life is no longer simple and carefree.

Mum told brother she does not understand my style of parenting. well! Tell me about it, I also do not understand as well. Do not like violence and definitely taking a humanistic approach. I do believe everyone can change. Not bowing to authority but wanting to change for the better for themselves. I am defintely not a strict parent. I believe in negotiation and some basic rules whereby you do not cause harm to others.

Anyway time waits for no man. Children will grow up so fast they leave u in a wink. Parents will leave you when you do not take note. What we have is present, what is important is the now.

Gonna make time for loved ones more. Listen and be heard. My most impt task in life now is my loved ones. Be truthful and I am glad I am blessed with Joe's support I can be a tai tai!

Feeling better

Feeling better is the new positive thought I gonna adapt. Whenever I feel down, I am going to tell myself things will be better if I feel better. Many a times I feel rather helpless being on my own. I am not like my friends who can live without their partners. I feel that being a couple, we should share our ups and downs together and create memories together along the way. If we live two separate lives and only be there for kids/ family, then I will be really depressed. Joe has been my best advisor on how to live my life, my soulmate when I need some tender loving care, my critics when I do something wrong and of course my fantasy lover.

I know I am not able to live this life if I do not have my life partner with me. Whoever is the one I feel emotionally dependable will receive my wholehearted faithfulness and love. I am really possessive in the sense that whatever is mine, I keep and guard it. Some might say I am too controlling but I so not think so.

Joe told me we should separate ourselves from our kids' lives as I seem to lose control over my emotions whenever the boys did something not to my expectations. Easy said than done. I am always affected by them so easily.

Well! Will tell myself to feel better and think better thoughts rather than thinking myself as useless and cannot achieve much. Just now spent some time swimming with kids and that is also creating wonderful memories. Hope when kids have left our nest, we can look back and laugh at all the silly things that we deem so impt now.