Yesterday sent mum to Yishun Hospital A&E since she has been complaining of feeling unwell. WE were worried that she might ahve a mild stroke again like what happened last year. Luckily after all the checks, she is able to come home for further observation. Docs reassured her its her reaction to disbetes medication that she is feeling numbness in her limbs. Adeline came to take over at 11pm and I went to mediacorp to film our lose to win profile. Took only about 2 hrs to film us all. After that came home bout 3 plus trying to catch a wink but can't. Went out at about 6 plus for lose to win group exercise.
Yesterday we had kick boxing. Really quite fun and we sweated a lot. I think I have a problem with my left side. Simply can't coordinate well. After exercising, I went CCMC meeting and came back around 10pm. Charles was still awake and he slept with Channery and me. He seemed to be in a good mood lei.
This morning woke Charles up and he started to act up again. Screaming shouting and throwing things. He even threw his spectacls. Well! I was so mad I gave him a good thrashing as well! He really pushes my buttons nad getting on my nerves. Told him I will concentrate on nurturing the other three kida who are angels and won't feel bad that I am a losuy mum in his eyes as he is a demon kid. Can't stand his sight and all. Well! he even climbed over the ledge and wanting to throw his pants down and such. I know I should not tell him to die but I did anyway. My life will be so much better off without him. Why he is reluctant to go school I think i know why. Today is Mathematics exam and he is incapable of scoring since he has been missing lessons. He said he hated the fact that during exam he has to sit many hours in hi ssat after finishing his test. He is simply finding all sorts of excuses for his incapability.
I was very tempted to call police already but Joe said no. Think he will be sent to boys home or foster parents house. He simply does not fit into this society if he keeps thinking of escaping school. No schooling - no future. I am not going to spents tons on money sending him to international school as I am going to keep the money for the other kids or for our old age.
Many friends told me to have patience with Charles. Well! He is not their son. I can't like what they say to thank Charles of teaching me patience. He is giving me a chance to be a better person maybe but I find I am just so common a person. I am not a saint.
Time waits for no man. When Charles is old enough, he will know that reality is harsh and he better works hard for his future. Because of him, the other kids will have no TV and computer time for the rest of the week.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Lose to Win Filming
For 2 wks I have been helping to film the lose to win Challenge by HPB. Even with the extra filiming and everything, I was able to "take" it. However, yesterday's filming really put a down to everything and I am really very upset.
Well! Actually I will be doing a disservice to healthier eating cause I have "screwed" up cooking the dish. With reduced fat coconut milk and skin off chicken drumnsticks, the chicken actually will taste well if there is enough time to slowly the dish till all imgredients were tender and could melt in mouth. The onions would have disappeared, the carrots,potatoes and meat cooked through and soft.
However, without factor in time constraints, the chicken was not tasty enough and vegetables were not fully cooked. with little time, I should have marinate the chicken wiht curry powder but I did not so the dish which only took about 15 mins to prepare is a total; failure. Should have sliced everything into thinner slices and marinate the chicken properly.
Well! I am prepared to be a laughing stock on TV for a while la. Not really a great cook so I can now hang my apron and leave cooking to maid or any one else.
The fact that people might think low fat is not the way to cook worries me. Actually cooking healthily is good for health. Coming back singapore and eating outside regularly has taken a toll on my body and I have proof as I put on so much weight ater coming back home from Australia. My family ate home-cooked healthy meals there and we are really what we eat. Singapore's hawkers' food is nice but somehow what goes in the dish is really undesirable.
If I can redo what I did yesterday, I will gladly do so. However, what's done cannot be undone so going to brave it all.
Btw hated the fact that I was the "Lousy" cook and everyone just treated it like a big joke. One of my friend commented it tasted like what grandma used to taste and presenter said his grnadma must be a lousy cook. What a crude way to comment and it's such an insult to his grandma and to me. I went through the filming from 8 plus to 10n plus feeling simply sian and defeated and no mood to do anything.
Somehow yesterday not my day. Rushing to fetch Janet and was late as I was held up at nealy every traffic light. Total 12 and I took nearly twice the time to reach there. After that, driving to Redhill and was nearly late again. Hate the fact that things do no turn out well. It's really quite a tedious thing to drive. Yesterday after sending the other 4 participants back, I was home at 11.40pm.
Can I face the crew again with dignity? Maybe not as I think I am really affected by my cooking outcome. Well! wish me luck to go through this filming.
Well! Actually I will be doing a disservice to healthier eating cause I have "screwed" up cooking the dish. With reduced fat coconut milk and skin off chicken drumnsticks, the chicken actually will taste well if there is enough time to slowly the dish till all imgredients were tender and could melt in mouth. The onions would have disappeared, the carrots,potatoes and meat cooked through and soft.
However, without factor in time constraints, the chicken was not tasty enough and vegetables were not fully cooked. with little time, I should have marinate the chicken wiht curry powder but I did not so the dish which only took about 15 mins to prepare is a total; failure. Should have sliced everything into thinner slices and marinate the chicken properly.
Well! I am prepared to be a laughing stock on TV for a while la. Not really a great cook so I can now hang my apron and leave cooking to maid or any one else.
The fact that people might think low fat is not the way to cook worries me. Actually cooking healthily is good for health. Coming back singapore and eating outside regularly has taken a toll on my body and I have proof as I put on so much weight ater coming back home from Australia. My family ate home-cooked healthy meals there and we are really what we eat. Singapore's hawkers' food is nice but somehow what goes in the dish is really undesirable.
If I can redo what I did yesterday, I will gladly do so. However, what's done cannot be undone so going to brave it all.
Btw hated the fact that I was the "Lousy" cook and everyone just treated it like a big joke. One of my friend commented it tasted like what grandma used to taste and presenter said his grnadma must be a lousy cook. What a crude way to comment and it's such an insult to his grandma and to me. I went through the filming from 8 plus to 10n plus feeling simply sian and defeated and no mood to do anything.
Somehow yesterday not my day. Rushing to fetch Janet and was late as I was held up at nealy every traffic light. Total 12 and I took nearly twice the time to reach there. After that, driving to Redhill and was nearly late again. Hate the fact that things do no turn out well. It's really quite a tedious thing to drive. Yesterday after sending the other 4 participants back, I was home at 11.40pm.
Can I face the crew again with dignity? Maybe not as I think I am really affected by my cooking outcome. Well! wish me luck to go through this filming.
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