Joe said it's PMS

These few days i have been feeling rather agitated and stress out. No news from H and I dared not call her to check how she is back in Singapore. Waiting for news can be rather scary and stressful.

Called up Mum and she was doing well in Singapore. She had decided to go out and hang out with the aunties. They always ended up having a card game but who cares as long as she is happy. Mum in law also is enjoying herself in Singapore. Good that we are not tying her down.

These few days Channery had been really difficult to handle. Maybe it was my own reactions but she really becoming a little monster sometimes. stubborn and like to shed crocodile tears. She had been going to sleep only at abt 12am and she woke up in the middle of the night crying for me. She is becoming very clingy and I feel really sian.

Who can understand my emotions and frustrations? Telling JOE is of no use. We are poles opposite and he simply not able to address my needs. He said I am feeling so because it's PMS. Good for him to be able to go out and talk to someone rather than his family members.

Being overshadowed by my neighbour's tall house, I can't help but feel depressed. Told Joe it's no good feeling and bad fengshui but he is reluctant to move. I really hope to be able to shift to a better home. This one is simply no good for mental health. i have very negative thoughts when I feel depressed and defeated. Never told Joe before but the feelings and thoughts are there. Another reason maybe I feel constantly cold in this house. The negative thoughts kept repeating themselves in my head. i have to keep self talk to myself to be positive. Try thinking that you are sandwiched between two lebonese families and they are speaking a language you do not know. We have no connections and does not interact with them at all.

PMS - Joe's answer to my distress. Maybe he is right and that I have to have some control over myself.