Charles's fate

On Monday, Charles again absent himself from school. No matter what I told him, he simply refused to cooperate. I was desperate but he simply bo chap. I went to the Guan yin's temple for prayers. Maybe like what the Guan yin's nun said, my eldest son must be someone's godson if not he would give me lots of trouble. Luckily my brother and sis-in-law have agreed to help me out. Do not know when is the best time but somehow I will try whatever ways to help his and my life better.

On Tuesday, Charles went to school. He just up and go and the boys even invited their friends over. They claimed they wanted to do groupwork but I thought more for fun and more fun. Well! At least the boys have friends in school.

Meeting Hong yesterday and we started talking about our kids and I thought Charles ok but guessed what? This morning he flared up in school and dashed out in a fit from his class after scolding his teacher. The students managed to get hold of him and sent him to the counsellor's room. He could be so reckless and dangerous when he is angered.

Well! Hope charles will learn to curb his anger and learn how to manage his emotions if not he will suffer. I really feel like sending him to IMH ( institute of Mental health) or the boys home. He is a pain in everywhere for me and I really do not know how to handle him anymore. I know I am a lousy mum. Well! not jsut me, yesterday's newspaper a pastor's son also got into trouble with law and a tyrant to others. Why God chose me to bear this burden I do not know but I hope I won't have to carry it for long.

Charles's fate is not in my hands or in anyone's hands. his fate whether good fortune or not is only in HIS own Hands. God bless him please!