What's up lately?

What's up lately? Since Joe went back to Australia, I went through a stage of grief period as I was down with flu and feeling really sorry for myself. Everything went like black and white tv and life has no special meaning.

On the first day of school 28th June, Charles did not go to school. I was really angry with him as he threw his bag at my car and then ran off. I did not pick up his bag and drove off. The kind security guard picked up his bag for him. That afternoon I took Charlynn nad Chantz to New York new york for their good behaviour. To charles I told him that night he had to choose whether he was going. I will just get ready and leave and he was able to do so for Tue, Wed and Thursday.

Luckily for me, I had to go Filming for Win council on 29th and 30th June and I was able to pull myself out of my bad mood. Had fun acting against Edmund Chen ZhiCai and the other ladies from other PA organizations. Total time taken is about 8 hrs and it will be burned into a CD Rom to be distributed to all Women's executive committess (WEC)in Singapore. It will be on the Win council website too. Well! Hopefully more people will know what is WEc and what is Win so that we can get more women to join us as friends.

On 1st July, Joe's friend, Alejandro came to visit. He had 10 hrs to spend before he board a plane to Europe. I met him at the airport with the kids and then we went jalan jalan. We visited the Marina Barrage then to chinatown to visit the Chinatown Heritage Centre. We walked around and he loved to take pictures of temples and such. After that, we rushed off so as to fetch Channery from child care. We barely reached there by 7pm. After that, we had dinner at the park restaurant in CCK garden. We ordered the local specialties and ended up I had to tabao most of the food back home since our Chile friend is not used to our food. We sent the kids home and we showed off our place. We left the kids at about 8.30pm as I wanted to show him the night scene at Duxton - Pinnacle at Outram. I was not sure how to go into the carpark so we took a few turns. Luckily I had my GPS with me and we managed to go in by 9pm. We walked about and guessed what? We only could see lots of lights- mostly from the container port nearby. REally not so impressive lei.

We left at about 9.45pm so that he could catch his plane. I talked to him but I do not know if he was listening. Many hours of flight and walking made him rather tired already. I dropped him off at the departure gate without sending him into the airport since he assured me he knows what to do. He gave me a thank you hug and I drove off after that. Mission accomplished and frankly speaking, he appeared to be too reserved la since we only met once in Sydney. Well! if he ever visits us again, I hope to open his heart so that he will be more relaxed beside me :>

On Friday, Charles again acted up and refused to go school. REason probably he did not complete his homework or simply lazy. The boys went to DAS re-assessmenr and the results showed that their IQ is very high but ability to do work very low. They need help in their school work. Why my sons are so special I do not know. hopefully they know that nobody can help them except themselves.

On Saturday, I brought Channery to Outram Everton PArk. She enjoyed herself very much as a buddy. She is starting to become more sensible and independant and that is really good news. When we came back, I had a severe headache and went to rest. Told boys they had scouts viking meeting but they decided not to go since they said its a long wkend and they gonna enjoyed it. Ok with me since I am not in a good state of mind to drive. When I woke up at 5pm, I decided to just order KFC for dinner. Just fifteen minutes later, my neighbour at first storey came huffing and puffing at my door. He was extremely angry as my naughty Chaantz had threw two buckets of water down to their place. I told Chantz to apologise but he was too stubborn to do so. After telling me off for 10-15 mins, my neighbour finally "happy" and said okay after I told him I will cane my son. I was fuming mad at that time as I had to be the one to be scolded and reprimanded. My neighbour is a father so he should be more understanding but he is nothing like that. Maybe he has no naughty boys who always get into trouble :<

Just when I was canning and scolding Chantz, the security guards came to investigate. Why can't they jsut leave me alone? I know I am a failure in parenting my child but I really cannot do much if their behaviour is beyond my comprehension too. Feeling really lousy after that for the following days. I had no motivation and even did not stay long while volunteering at RC. I really have no confidence that my children will behave staying at home with my maid. The pressure to be constantly on alert mode really made me jumpy and angry.

On Monday, we went to visit my mum in law as we have not done so since Joe left for Sydney. We had roti prata at TPY. Can't help thinking thoughts like life is nothing to look forward to. Dying now and later at 80 yrs ols is the same isn't it? Quite negative outlook of life actually. Moreover, I was really pissed off by the fact that we arrived earlier but could not get a seat but those later than us getting a seat and able to have their food faster than us. I know my order was rahter small as kids only want plain prata but that should not mean we had to wait longer lei.

We arrived at my mum-in-law's place and she was really happy to see the little ones. She even brought them downstairs to buy them their favourite ice-cream. We stayed for an hour and then its goodbye time. Called up mum and she was at ikea with Aidi so we drove there to join them. Channery wanted to go to the playroom and I ended up waiting outside for an hour before she went in. When I joined Aidi and her sis and mum-in-law, they had fed my kids and I did not have to order more food since my sis had ordered or me. Pai say that she refused to keep the money I offered. While I was eating, children were playing at a nearby pavillion and suddenly all hells broke loose and Charles was crying buckets. A little indian boy boxed him so hard on his stomach and face that he broke his spectacles.

What was annoying was that the mum kept saying children playing and never even say sorry and offered to pay for the broken spectacles. I was angry so I scolded Charles for not able to fend for himself. I even threatened to deduct the cost from his allowance. I said all these for the indian mum but she just played dumb. I wondered how the son will be when he grows up? Mum simply will not pay for damages and ignoring his son's bad behaviour. I am proud that Charles did not pulled a punch on the little boy. What I should have done is hugged charles and comforted him and demand some medical and compensation for the broken spectacles but I just walked away feeling extremely agitated. I am going to stand up for my rights if such things happen again. By letting the mother and son go, I am guilty of causing the child to shrink responsibility for his actions too. WEll! I took this opportunity and told the children how others will feel when someone did ud wrong and never say sorry as well as we should do what's right.

Yesterday we came back from ikea and boys only started to do homeowrk at 10pm again. Instead of losing my temper, we did the work and everyone felt happy after that. Lowering my expectations and life is easier la.

Therefore you all can see that I am really a busy mama. My life is full of actions and tears and laughters sometimes. I feel very happy when my kids are confident and happy. simple but difficult to achieve sometimes.